It was so difficult for me to go places and see friends and family continuing in their everyday lives. How could they do this when I had suffered such a devastating loss? I felt like the world had stopped spinning but only for me. Somehow, I had taken an exit in life and couldn't find the entry point to get back on. I knew that life continued on around me but I was no longer a part of it.

I know that there will be some, perhaps many, that will read this and think me a fool for such thoughts. However, faith in God and following His gospel are paramount in my life. For me, a child choosing a homosexual lifestyle was devastating. We believe the family, with father and mother, is the only organization that will extend into the eternities; by selecting homosexuality those blessings are forfeit. I love my son and I want him with me forever. Now, that may never happen. This is why my pain is so acute. Eternity may now be less than what it could and should be.